Revenge Fantasies, Fashion, and Dangerously Located Gyms

Before I left for the gym this morning, I did a little bit of shopping in my own closet. One of my very worst habits used to be buying clothes that were too small for me. I was a big believer in "someday I will get into this" and "this outfit is so fabulous it will give me some incentive to lose weight." AKA lies, lies, LIES that I used to tell myself. Well…the upside of that bat shit crazy is that now I have a closet full of great clothes with tags still on them. I tried on several shirts that I could not even squeeze into this time last year and they all fit really well. I'm going to have lots of new duds to wear when I start back to school. There is one shirt in particular that I am really excited to wear. It's still just a bit too small in the hips, but in another ten pounds it will be just right. It provided some great incentive to get myself to the gym today, let me tell you. Workout #3 of 4 this week. Yea!

Speaking of the gym and motivation...do you guys know who Mindy Kaling is? She played Kelly Kapoor on The Office and was also one of the writers of the show. She now has her own show on Fox called The Mindy Project. In her hilarious book Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? she writes about how when she is running and trying to not think about running, she concocts elaborate revenge fantasies in her head. They usually involve serial killers or Al Qaeda terrorists murdering her new, young, stunningly handsome husband, and it is entirely up to her to avenge his death. By the time she has gotten through all this...her workout time is up! The power of distraction. What I find myself thinking of is not nearly as sinister, but it does help pass the time. I realized today that one of my favorite things to do is to plan outfits in my head. Sometimes I think about different combinations of things I already have, sometimes I future trip and think about what I want to wear when I get thinner...you name it. One kind of dangerous thing (for my wallet) is that my gym is right by a big shopping center that includes both Target and Lane Bryant. I saw this blazer at Lane Bryant yesterday and I haven't been able to get it out of my head. I had a 30% off coupon so I went and got it. I did buy it slightly smaller than I need at the moment...old habits die hard...but now it's okay, right? Please tell me I'm not still crazy. Ha!

In other news...what a difference a fill can make. Apparently even a small one. I'm not feeling as tight as I was on Wednesday, but I can definitely tell that I have more restriction. Yesterday's eating was kind of boring. I had forgotten how hard it is to just do liquids. I'm one of those people who really needs to chew something. But I will say that I was sort of happy that I got to have my all-time favorite soup again...Progresso Chicken Cheese Enchilada. I discovered this when I was on the full liquid phase, and remarkably I didn't get sick of it. Make sure to blend it up though, because it has some good-sized chunks of chicken. So this is what I ate yesterday...my very favorite full liquids:

This morning I got up and had my iced coffee with vanilla Unjury. It was quite a while before I was hungry. Around 11:00 I ate a scrambled egg and a 1/4 cup of cottage cheese. I concentrated on eating very slowly and taking tiny bites. Everything went down just fine.

When I came home from the gym and shopping, I made some tuna salad. Last time I went to Kroger, they had no Hellman's Light Mayo, so I bought Duke's Light because I heard it was good. I'm really not a fan. It has a very strong canola oil taste that I am just not feeling.

 

John is actually off tonight and I'm so excited. I'm going to make my favorite Poppy Seed Chicken Casserole...the lightened up version. This is what I ate the first day that I could have real food. There is a link to the recipe on my very first blog post. I'm going to serve it with some green beans.

 

And later on...there will definitely be a Yasso Coconut Bar. :)

 

My totals for the day:

Have a great weekend and thanks for reading!